Mathematics!

First of all i want to say i hate MATH! The fact that it has so many formulas, variables, letters, decimals, and fractions to remember it is such a pain! I find it so difficult to memorize the formulas that are needed to solve different equations or certain equations. I get that math is one of the main generalized subject for school, but why does it have to be so painful? It gets me so frustrated at times when i cant figure out how to even solve an equation and that's just the first step! If i cant solve the equation i cant get to the answer, which makes me even more frustrated. One thing i do hate about my math course at the moment is that its all lab work done on a computer generated from a program called "Hawkes Learning." My thoughts about it is, I am not learning much from the course due to the fact that it is all done on a computer with the process of self teaching of how to do the stuff. I mean seriously, what is the point of having a learning program for math when there is a professor? Professors' are paid to teach us this stuff in class so that we can teach ourselves out of class right? At least that's how i feel about. The only thing the professor is in class for is to supervise on when we take exams and such to give us a grade. Thus, this is more of an online class to me than an in class session. If i wanted to take an online course i would have done so and not taken a on campus course. If i wanted to teach myself how to do math i woulndt have signed up for school either. Although this Hawkes program may work for some, but it isnt working for me, i can garuntee that. Therefore, I feel like i might just completely fail this course! And yes, $80 for an access code just to enroll in "Hawkes".... Down the drain! BOOOOOO!

Why go to school

For me honestly i never took school so seriously. I have always felt it was just there to educate the mind so that people have a sense of how to do things in the real world on their own; like build skyscrapers, or put a computer together from scratch or just using the mind to create something etc. I have nothing against getting an education, for i myself am continuing my education at the moment as a college student. Still there's a message sitting in the back my mind feeling that I'm just going to school for the hell of it. To take up some time and get it over with. For others it may be what they want for themselves. As a college student i often asked myself do i really want to go to school, pay thousands of dollars and just wait if i pass all my classes to get a job? No and yes. Why i say that is because school isnt the only option to landing a great job. I feel that there are many opportunities out there to discover that could lead me to a great job as long as i know my stuff and the requirement of the job. I shouldnt have to waste so many years in school paying thousands of dollars to the colleges to receive a great education. I just believe paying that much for an education is too overrated, and coming from a family who cant afford much of the schooling cost it puts us in debt. What if i cant afford school anymore in the end, where do i come up with the bundle of money to pay the schools back? or the loans i will eventually take even though i dont how much just yet? But i know it will be a an amount i cant come up with easily. What if i do happen to graduate with a degree in whatever profession, and get a job? Will that job be paying me a similar amount of salary compared to what i was paying for for my own education yearly?! These are all the thoughts that goes through my mind constantly as a current college student. On the other hand i do feel school is a good place to be. As an experienced student there are all kinds of government money help out there its just a willing to find it to get it. At the moment i dont know what career path i want to take anymore. School can be a very rewarding place to receive a high level education, but comes with a lot of stress trying to keep a good academic profile. I can take the challenges, its just a matter of if i want to stay in school for as long as whatever career keeps me. My motivation scale at the moment for school is around 70% to achieving my studies, the left overs... We'll see, hopefully it doesnt rise too much